So this blog is about the year during which I turn 30 years old. It is only fitting that I have an entry the night before I actually turn 30.
I had a wonderful weekend. I planned it out so that I could spend time with family and friends, but also in a state of calm, peace, and serenity. I got just that.
First, I had dinner at my favorite restaurant with most of my closest friends. It was wonderful to be in the company of the people I care about the most.
Then, He and I went to a wonderful hotel in midtown Manhattan where we met with Her. This was my first time meeting Her and I have to say it was better than I could have ever imagined. He and I have been working on moving into that place that would work best for us, and we have been, slowly but surely. A number of things happened along the way, but by my request, he invited Her. I offered Her a gift, my olive branch, and asked that we all co-exist peacefully and openly. I felt the warmth in the room, the mutual attraction and imagination of what if and could this happen… I spoke to them both and opened the door, hoping they would each walk through. And they did. And all began to feel right with me.
We had a passionate night together and I began to feel settled. I’d made clear that from that moment on, all of my decisions would be based on what I wanted, not on what others wanted or expected. My life is MINE and I am finally putting myself first. There is nothing more freeing than the feeling of being in control of one’s own destiny and being resilient enough to take the blows and overcome the obstacles. I passed my thoughts onto Her because of the things she is going through in Her own life. I hope she heard me. I learned my lesson, she is now learning hers.
After she left, we went to sleep because we had a peaceful weekend at a B&B planned. Originally, I was going to go by myself, but I realized that I wanted Him there with me. He happily agreed to go. We both needed the rest and there was no one I would want to end my 20s with, than the person who had the greatest impact on that decade. I cannot deny the impact and influence he has had on my life.
The B&B was AMAZING. The Apple Valley Inn B&B in Glennwood, NJ (Go visit!!!). It was beautiful, inside and out, affordable, welcoming, inviting, endearing, isolated, everything anyone could want for time away from the world. The Innkeepers were the best and the breakfast was so delicious. I was SO happy to have found their location on the internet. I didn’t want to leave.
But alas, we had to return to the city. We stopped for a movie, and then picked up our son. We came home and relaxed, despite our son being a hellion on wheels. Yes, today was the first day my baby rode a tricycle by himself. I was so proud of him. All I could think, as I enjoyed the warm sun on a lovely spring day while watching my son ride was how wonderfully blessed I am to have the life that I have.
Recently, He called me a complainer. It struck me at my core because I didn’t realize that others felt I was negative like that. I promised myself that I would not only stop complaining as much, but I would stop looking at things so negatively that everything I said turned out to sound like a complaint. Yes, I’m a nitpicking perfectionist, but so what? lol
Tomorrow, at approximately 6:34 am, I will be 30 years old.
I am actually happy to have made it…